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Morganth Silvermoon





Given the choice, whether to rule a corrupt and failing empire

Or to challenge the fates for another throw

A better throw against ones destiny

What was a king... to do?





B
Boo.


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Thursday, September 21, 2006

It's not like I'm walking alone into the valley of the shadow of death
Stand beside one another, 'cause it ain't over yet
I'd be willing to bet that if we don't back down
You and I will be the ones that are holding the Crown in the end
When it's over, we can say, "Well done"
But not yet, 'cause it's only begun
So, pick up, and follow me, we're the only ones
To fight this thing, until we've won
We drive on and don't look back
It doesn't mean we can't learn from our past
All the things that we mighta done wrong
We could've been doing this all along

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

And we'll be carrying on, until the day it doesn't matter anymore
Step aside, you forgot what this is for
We fight to live, we live to fight
And tonight, you'll hear my battle cry
We live our lives on the frontlines
We're not afraid of the fast times
These days have opened up my eyes
And now, I see where the threat lies


We've got to lead the way



There I posted.

Ryan at 4:18 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
Oooo (oh, oh, oh, oh) oooo

Chemistry was crazy from the get-go
Neither one of us knew why
We didn't build nothing overnight
Cuz a love like this takes some time
People swore it off as a phase
Said we can't see that
Now from top to bottom
They see that we did that (yes)
It's so true that (yes)
We've been through it (yes)
We got real sh** (yes)
See baby we been...

Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

I got a question for ya
See I already know the answer
But still I wanna ask you
Would you lie? (no)
Make me cry? (no)
Do somethin' behind my back and then try to cover it up?
Well, neither would I, baby
My love is only your love (yes)
I'll be faithful (yes)
I'm for real (yes)
And with us you'll always know the deal
We've been...

Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

See this is real talk
I'm always stay (no matter what)
Good or bad (thick and thin)
Right or wrong (all day everyday)
Now if you're down on love or don't believe
This ain't for you (no, this ain't for you)
And if you got it deep in your heart
And deep down you know that it's true (come on, come on, come on)
Well, let me see you put your hands up (hands up)
Fellas tell your lady she's the one (fellas tell your lady she's the one, oh)
Put your hands up (hands up)
Ladies let him know he's got your love
Look him right in his eyes and tell him
We've been...

Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

Heeeeeeeeeeeey Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh
Heeeeeeeeeeeey Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh

I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you
I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you

Ryan at 1:51 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

When do we lose our innocense? At what point does our lives stop being driven on instinct, and instead start being ran by emotions, wants and impulses? For clearly instinct and impulse is seperate. Or are they? At what point do we start using logic and reasoning to over come our day to day lives?

When do we lose our innocense? When do we lose the ability to see our lives through the eyes of a child? Clearly, a child is innocent. But when do they stop being so? At what point does a child start reacting selfishly? Rashly? Even harmfully? When do we start making right and wrong decisions with self-awareness, instead of instinct?

If a child murders someone, clearly we as adults consider this wrong. But does the child? Yes? No? Is it instinct to kill? To take life in survival, even? Such as a time of war.

When do we lose the innocence and start being driven by more powerful emotions? Both good and bad.

Vanity. Selfishness. Impulsiveness. Greed. Honor. Bravery. Altruism. Sacrifice. Integrity.

When do we start reacting or being proactive instead of instinctive?

Eye on the TV
'Cause tragedy thrills me
Whatever flavor it happens to be, like...
"Killed by the husband"
"Drowned by the ocean"
"Shot by his own son"
"She used a poison
in his tea... then kissed him goodbye"
That's my kind of story
It's never fun 'til someone dies

Don't look at me like
I am a monster
Frown out your one face
But with the other
Stare like a junkie
Into the TV
Stare like a zombie

While the mother holds her child
Watches him die
Hands to the sky crying,
"Why, oh why?"

Cause I need to watch things die... from a distance
Vicariously I live while the whole world dies
You all need it too, don't lie

Why can't we just admit it?
Why can't we just admit it?
We won't give pause until the blood is flowing
Neither the brave nor bold
Will write as the story's told
We won't give pause until the blood is flowing

I need to watch things die... from a good safe distance
Vicariously I live while the whole world dies
You all feel the same, so...

Why can't we just admit it?

Blood like rain come down
Drum on grave and ground

Part vampire
Part warrior
Carnivore and voyeur
Stare at the transmittal
Sing to the death rattle


Credulous at best
Your desire to believe in
Angels in the hearts of men
Pull your head on out, your head please and give a listen
Shouldn't have to say it all again

The universe is hostile, so impersonal
Devour to survive... so it is, so it's always been

We all feed on tragedy
Its like blood to a vampire

Vicariously I live while the whole world dies
Much better you than I

Ryan at 3:08 PM

Thursday, July 13, 2006

haven't written in awhile, thought I would. Got transferred to the composite shop at work for the remainder of the time i'm there. Not a big deal, it's good training, I just abhor change.

Me and crystal are doing well. Tommorow will be 9 months that we've been together. I already know that this is the girl i'm going to marry. Won't be for awhile, got some other things to take care of first, but I do love her. Much like I loved gayla, except i'm older now and will not repeat the same mistakes I made with gayla.

Speaking of gayla...here is a song for you. I know you don't love him, and I hope one day you find someone that you do love...you're sticking around because he takes care of you..and I can respect that in a way...I just hope you end up happy.

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your loves closed
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery


Well...watched all three original starwars movies with crystal earlier. She's got a sunburn so she layed there without a shirt or bra, so I was happy. Anywho...Don't have much to say so....later

Ryan at 5:39 PM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

FUCK YOU HIGHSCHOOL!!
I WASN'T STUPID!
I WAS LAZY!
AND THIS PROVES IT! FUCK YOU PRINCIPLE RICHARDS! FUUUUCK YOOOOOU!!!!!

This Certificate is awarded to Ryan K Boland in liei of a high school diploma for having made acceptable (More like outfuckingstanding) scores on a comprehensive and approved battery of standardized tests of general education and development in the following high school subject fields; Writing skills, social studies, science, literature and the arts, and mathematics.

Issued by the Virginia Department of Education on this day May 16th, 2006

Signed, blahblahblah


HA! FUCK YOU!

Nows lets analyze in retro-spect. Average Battery score is 658.

I scored 3290.
You have demonstrated the 21st century skills of:
Communication
Information Processing
Problem Solving
Higher order thinking skills
In five test areas to perform effectively in the workplace or in higher education as the top 10% of traditional high school graduates.

Fuckin' right, doggy.

Language Arts, Reading - 99%
Language Arts, Writing - 86% (Been awhile since I wrote and the topic was very dry)
Mathematics - 82% (always been my worst subject..so boring)
Science - 97%
Social Studies - 93%

Language Arts, Reading
Your score exceeds the GED passing score requirement and the scores of 80% of graduating seniors. You demonstrated superior skills in the following areas;
Comprehending, analyzing, evaluating, and synthesizing workplace and literary texts.

Language Arts, Writing
Your score exceeds the GED passing score requirement and the scores of 80% of graduating seniors. You demonstrated superior skills in the following areas.
using the elements of standard english to edit workplace and informational documents and to generate well-organized and developed written tests.

Mathematics
Your score meets or exceeds the GED passing score requirement. You demonstrated essential skills in the following areas.
Understanding and interpreting mathematical concepts in algebra, data analysis, statistics, geometry, and number operations applied to visual and written texts and academic and workplace texts. (you'd think they wouldn't use so many ands in a row)

Science
Your score exceeds the GED passing score requirement and the scores of 80% of graduating seniors. You demonstrated superior skills in the following areas.
Understanding, interpreting, and applying concepts of life, earth and space sciences, physics, and chemistry to visual and written texts from academic and workplace contexts.

Social Studies
Your score exceeds the GED passing score requirement and the scores of 80% of graduating seniors. You demonstrated superior skills in the following areas.
Understanding, interpreting, and applying key history, geography, economics, and civics concepts and principles to visual and written academic and workplace contexts.





Not having my diploma has always beena very big chip on my shoulder. Both as a judge of my own character and potential to what I knew I could achieve, and to what others thought of me. I know i'm smart...highschool was just a very sad and lonely time in my life. My best friend betrayed me to hang with the popular kids and I was stuck to fend for myself. Then I met kelli. My first long term girlfriend. I treated her good, and in the end she was a liar, an attention seeking whore (literally), and treated me like trash. She cheated on me more than once, and had some growing up to do. I imagine, even now, that she still does. She ruined highschool for me. We broke up and I stopped going to school. I couldn't handle seeing her everyday, hanging on other people like I never existed..she broke my heart, and in the end, I got expelled from school for missing so many days. I let her get the best of me and it nearly killed me. I thought of killing myself several times in highschool, but I wasn't the typical emo kid..I didn't dress outlandish, or have a stupid hairstyle..I wore jeans and t shirts and just minded my own business, went home and played games. That was my life. Now...i'm proud to say I can set that part of myself away on a shelf and never think about it until my kids ask. Kelli...thank you for treating me like shit. Karma hasa funny way of showing you that what goes around, comes around...i hope nothing bad ever happens to you...but if it does, i'll certainly be at your funeral...if nothing else than to smile...just a little...only a little...on the inside, just for me.

Ryan at 3:58 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Wisdom Teeth pulled.

And there was lots of pain.

And then there was vicadin.

And there was much rejoicing.

Ryan at 7:00 AM

Friday, May 12, 2006

A chapter of my life has ended...the last page finished, the prelude to another chapter looming before me...and I embrace it with open arms. Her name is Crystal.

To my last chapter, this song is for you.


Do you remember me?
You can't see the things
That make me who I am
You'll never understand

And I gotta keep moving, you're living off my sweat
Moving, the devil's on my back
And these are the days that I dreamed about
And you're always there to remind me

You're my enemy
All that we had has gone away
There are times that fade away
But you'll still be my enemy


The friend you had in me
You turned on so easily
I'm sad to see you go
At least now I know


And I gotta keep moving, you're living off my sweat
Moving, the devil's on my back
And these are the days that I dreamed about
And you're always there to remind me

You're my enemy
All that we had has gone away
There are times that fade away
But you'll still be my enemy


And I see clearly now
You tried to bleed me
And I see clearly now
You tried to feed on me

Ryan at 2:43 PM

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